What Do I Do?

[KeiThePanda]

So, I'm head over heels for this guy. He has such a big impact on my life almost daily and he's made me happier than I've ever felt before.
We used to date. But then I messed up because of this weird, sudden, suicidal depression and broke up with him. A week later I felt tons better and I got some of my self confidence back on my own. Then I found he was already taken again by some girl who asked him out a day or so after I ended it.
I feel like an idiot for breaking up with this guy, but I didn't know what else to do..

Anyway.
We've been flirting a lot recently. He tells me how much he loves me, cares deeply for me, wants me.. he tells me how attractive I am. He's made me feel more beautiful in the past few weeks than I've ever felt in my life. We're still a little intimate and we act almost like a couple still.
He told me he's not ready yet. But he eventually wants to be with me again.
I hurt him.. and he hasn't forgiven me fully yet, but he said he will.. just to give him time. And I can do that.

My problem..?
He still has a girlfriend.
And, he admitted to loving two other women as well. One is 6 years older than he is with 2 kids. The other is already taken, and very happily, I might add. And he hardly talks to them much anymore.. Not as much as me anyway..
The older one says she'll "step aside" until his life is balanced out again. I'm scared she'll pursue him once it is though, and I've never felt such hate towards a woman I don't even know who is! I feel like she's touching my guy.. when in all reality, I'm touching someone else's.
But, he says he doesn't even think his girlfriend and him are close like that anymore. She goes to a college some ways away and only sees him on long weekends.

He spends whatever time he can talking to me. We may get in a few arguments every now and again, but we always leave very happy with one another.

I've never felt like this for a guy.. and I really think he's the one for me.

But this doubt in my mind kills me everytime I think about it:
What if he loves one of the other girls more than me?
I know he's confused, but.. I don't know.
It's hard for me to accept it, really.
I love this guy so much.. and he seems to love me a lot too. He talks to me more than anyone else and is more affectionate with me.

How do I let this guy know how much I feel for him? Is there anyway to gain his trust and forgiveness quickly..?
And how do I get over my unnecessary jealousy towards the girls who really don't have a chance with him anyway?

Thank you for reading.. ^^ <3

[Orion23]

...in my opinion. I can understand that you love this guy but you could be setting yourself up for major heartbreak. You said that you'd been broken up a week and he was already taken by a woman who asked him out. Now, he has a girlfriend AND two other women that he loves. Is that correct? Is the girlfriend the same woman that he met a week after you two broke up? If so, it seems a little coincidental that a woman "asked him out" after you guys broke up. If she is not the girlfriend, then why did he not get back with you before meeting the girlfriend...unless he already had the girlfriend. In this case, you are waiting around for another woman's man.

It seems that he likes hooking up with you but has decided that you are not "the one". Perhaps the suicidal episode had something to do with it but I doubt it. I think that he may have used that situation as an excuse to exit the relationship without looking like the bad guy. The fact that he tells you that he loves two other women while he has a girlfriend and is STILL intimate with you speaks volumes. He has used the "love" for the other women and the girlfriend as a way to keep you at bay while he still gets to eat his cake and keep it too.

You ask the question about being jealous of these other girls who do not have a chance. How do you know that they don't? How do you know that you do? If you are listening to what he's telling you, you really should look more closely at the situation. If you are willing to settle for a portion of a man than that is all that you shall ever have. We all, no matter what we think, deserve to love someone totally and have someone reciprocate that love to us and us alone. Anything less is not love but something else that is toxic and ultimately painful.

I hope that you are able to get look past your feelings and make a good choice. As to how you do that, think of the advice that you would give your mom or little sister if you were on the outside looking in. Good luck.